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Jika Ada Tombol Reset

Dalam Game, tombol reset identikdengan loser. Merekalah yang kerap memencet tombol tersebut karena permainan mereka jauh dari ekspektasi mereka. Kalau di hidup ini ada tombol reset, berapa kalikah aku sudah memencetnya? I wonder. 
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